Freedom at Last: The Receiving End of Her Desires

Daily Bread: Psalm 21:2

You have given him his heart's desire, And have not withheld the request of his lips. Selah.

Oh, Lord, I give thanks unto You for Your everlasting love, kindness, compassion, and care for me.

Through Your sacrificial love and the possession of everlasting life, I am free from deception. I do not struggle to believe something as true when it is not. People may speak falsely or guide the interpretation of circumstantial situations in a way that is inaccurate in Your eyes.

But through Your heart, Your Word, Your understanding, and Your mind, I am grounded in the Way, the Truth, and the Life. I am not easily led away.

I remain steadfast in Your Word, letting the rod of God lead and direct my paths and keep my path straight. This is a shared desire between You and me and I’m grateful for the grace to honor You and live by it.

Lord, I also thank You that You have not only answered a prayer of mine recently, but have also helped me develop understanding over time through it.

For so long, I have always wanted to be a servant, but never in the way that You formed and fashioned me into in order to serve Your purposes.

I could not see that because the world has romanticized popular ways of servitude in public ways.

There is a difference between acting from where the Holy Spirit draws me or orients me toward for the sake of the necessity of the action itself unto You, whether that is in a private or public manner, versus acting in ways that help me gain value, approval, identity, or validation through helping others before Your eyes.

Neither is inherently wrong. However, either one can place me in a harmful situation regarding the life You predestined for me if I am not doing what You ask [command or demand] me to do; if I’m not doing something that will cause You to look down and say, “well done, My child.”

While that has been my struggle for a long time, I am among the few [of many] who are in a season of hiddenness as Your precious jewel.

You have taught me to detach myself from the identity of being useful in “public Christian settings” and instead to just focus on being useful unto You and to follow You wherever You lead me.

Again, not because others who are in those public spaces serving You are doing wrong, but because I have not been graced with the capacity to be extended into those places others are spiritually led to be. I have my own path that You have graciously made for me and also hope that one day I will desire and chase after You on this path.

Heavenly Father, the time is now.

It is now my desire to be spiritually fed at the feet of Jesus, through the bread You rain from heaven, which will be the daily bread that is uniquely portioned for me; it is my desire to do what my Father, Lord, and Savior tells, ordains, and predestines me to do. This is the heart of worship and service unto You.

This blessing of living in truth, being free from deception, and having the awareness of where I am supposed to be and what I am supposed to be doing right now, apart from the world’s incomplete perception of what my life should look like right now, will only take me both higher in the realms of the Spirit and farther in this human world at an accelerated rate which others may not cognitively or physically keep up with because Your ways and Your works exceed human understanding.

Oh, God, this is where I want to be.

I pray that Your strength continues to reign in me and over me.

I pray that Your strength does not fail within me, and that I continue to rely on You.

Father, this is the beginning of a life filled with knowledge, awareness, and understanding of what You are doing in my life. I know that You will not reveal it all at the same time.

So, I pray for the spirit of diligence as I look forward to more revelatory insight concerning the purpose that is upon me.

My ultimate desire in this season is to be found by You in peace, without spot and blameless.

Amen.